Life as a mompreneur

Photography by Janne Photography | Dress by PinkBlushMaternityInc | Hair Style & Color by Tara @ B'Lewie Salon & Day Spa

Photography by Janne Photography | Dress by PinkBlushMaternityInc | Hair Style & Color by Tara @ B'Lewie Salon & Day Spa

This picture was taken a year ago when I was 36 weeks pregnant with our first child and baby boy Dominic. It was the day of my baby shower and afterwards my talented friend Janneke captured this photo in our backyard. It was an unseasonably warm January afternoon here in the Midwest- hence the sleeveless maxi dress and lack of leaves on the trees. I remember being worried about the lack of greenery as the last thing I wanted these photographs to portray was a dark and dismal day. I remember feeling relieved to have the afternoon taken up with friends and family, a distraction from the flurry of emotions racing through my head. Excitement to meet this beautiful baby that we waited so long for. Scared that I had no idea what I was doing. Worried that sharing our lives with this new little guy would leave less time and effort for my marriage. Frightened of the unknown...so many unknowns. How would the delivery go? Would he be healthy? What if something went terribly wrong? See I had grown to love being pregnant. I was comfortable...emotionally at least... being pregnant. I had it pretty easy aside from some morning sickness in the first trimester. I loved him being so close right where I could feel him move and hold him tight...he was safe and sound in there. I love the way this picture captures that close connection between my baby and I. There in the midst of those bare trees and crunchy, brown leaves scattered on the ground, I am carrying this beautiful new life. It's as if nothing else really matters.

Now a year later we have this happy, healthy baby boy in our lives. And guess what? It has been all of those things- happy, scary and even frightening at times, but the good outweighs the bad a million to one. Our lives have changed tremendously over the past year. We fuss and worry over him more than we have about anything in our lives. We spend more weekends camped out at home playing with him vs. running errands all day or staying out late. But the biggest change for me is staying at home with him. Truly a blessing, I never counted on but always hoped for. When Dominic was 8 weeks old, I decided I wouldn't be going back to work. It was time for me to really focus on being a mother and to follow my dreams. After my long journey through college, a career in healthcare, planning our wedding, building our home and tinkering with interior design, I decided this new chapter of being a mom was too important to let slip by. After some deep reflection I decided starting my own business was the best path to fulfilling my dream to be a stay at home mama and build a creative career of my own aggregating all my experience and passions.

And so Petals & Lace was born just months after Dominic. And once again I found myself feeling SO many emotions. Excited to pursued my dreams. Worried that it would be too hard to juggle all my responsibilities. Frightened of the unknown. How would I balance being a new mom and an entrepreneur? Was I making the right decision? Once again I was on this rollercoaster of emotional ups and downs. One minute I was sure and the next I was doubtful. Then, I thought back to this moment captured in this photograph and how my feelings paralleled it. I knew I needed to punch fear in the face and keep pursing my dream! Once I let go of the worry and just focused on making my dream come true, a weight was lifted. Let go of the worries and get pumped about making my dream come true! Sure finding a balance is a struggle. I'm not going to lie it's a daily struggle, but it makes the victories so worth it! I'm watching my little boy grow up. I'm doing what I love. I have the tremendous support of my family, friends and community. I am growing in confidence and grace at what I am building and accomplishing with my God given talents. And I wouldn't change it for the world...